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To Stand in Awe April 21, 2009

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The Israelites have just finished the tabernacle and the alter, they’ve been given all these detailed instructions on various offerings, the priests are good and ready, and in Leviticus 9 we have basically what is the first ‘worship service’. It being the first time, they probably don’t know what’s going to happen, or what to expect. The glory of God appears to all the people, and God consumes the offering with fire. The first ‘service’ ever, and God ‘shows up’, and the people go crazy, start shouting in joy and fall face down in worship.

Can you imagine? How awesome must that have been? The priests, Aaron, Moses and the people doing this for the first time the way God has told them exactly how he wants to be worshipped, not knowing what to expect, not sure what exactly is going to happen, and God shows up, and is seen in all of his glory!

But then in chapter 10:

“Now Nadab and Abihu, the sons of Aaron, each took his censer and put fire in it and laid incense on it and offered unauthorized fire before the Lord, which he had not commanded them. And fire came out from before the Lord and consumed them, and they died before the Lord.”

Aaron’s sons Nadab and Abihu, after just having seen the glory of God, being all fired up and excited (no doubt about it) after just having seen God’s glory and fire come out from the presence of the Lord to consume the offering, offer unauthorised fire before God – contrary to how he’s said how it’s to be done. Bad idea! If God gives you instructions on how to do something, you stick to them. Otherwise, there’s serious consequences.

So, having done different to what God has told them to do, despite their hearts being in the right place, being fired up and excited about worshipping God, fire comes out from the presence of God, consuming them and killing them.

What’s interesting here is that they’re hearts are in it – they’re trying to worship God, but the way they do it isn’t right. It matters how we worship God. Our hearts have to be in it, but our actions – which reflect what’s going on inside have to be in line with how God wants to be worshipped. It’s not about how WE want to worship God – it’s how HE wants to be worshipped.

So, you’re thinking: Slaughtering animals, burning stuff, etc… that’s Old Testament, right? That’s old school? We don’t do that anymore, right? But the theory still applies today because God still cares how he is worshipped. Worship is an offering before God. We do need to follow the examples in the bible of how God wants to be worshipped. If we get mixed up in that, and worship God how WE want to, even with good hearts, like Nadab and Abihu – our good hearted worship offering can be offensive to God.

We were saved, not to be slaves to God, because that would imply he needs us, but to be sons and daughters, to worship God, our father, and to live lives that glorify him. We are all called to worship God. We are called to stand in awe.

Jesus talks about worshipping what we do not know. He follows on by saying (John 4:23-24) that “true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshippers the Father seeks (again – what God wants, what God is looking for). God is spirit, and his worshippers must worship in spirit and in truth.”

Worship in spirit and in truth? What is that?

“Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God – this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” (Romans 12: 1-2)

Worship is a sacrifice. An offering. Similar to the offerings in the Old Testament, here Paul talks about offering ourselves, our very lives as a worship sacrifice to God. Being a Christian is sacrificing your life to God – and that’s worship. Living a life of worship.

Spiritual worship is praising and worshipping a God who requires you to be all in, giving up the things of the world, and becoming more like Jesus daily. That involves sacrifice. That involves taking up our crosses daily.

Part of worshipping in truth is simply worshipping God in the way that he wants to be worshipped. With all your heart, soul, mind and strength, in accordance with what the bible says about how God wants to be worshipped.

We see plenty of examples of worship throughout the bible. We read the Psalms which teaches us how to worship God by singing. There’s examples of physical acts of worship (raising hands, facedown worship, kneeling, dancing, etc) as well, practised by people like Abram, Moses, Aaron, King David, Peter, James, John, etc. Taking a closer look at some of these people allows us to see the heart behind their physical acts of worship.

Every posture in worship says something of both the worshipper and the one being gloried in. The raising of hands tells of a soul stretched out high in praise and the worth of the one being exalted. Joyful dancing (like David) interprets a grateful heart and points in adoration to the lovable gracious God – the source of that joy. Worshipping facedown tells of a soul so captivated by God that to prostrate your self before God in true and total surrender seems the only appropriate response (and is probably the ultimate act of reverence) to our God, our high and exalted master.

What I’ve learned is that all these physical acts or postures begin as a posture of the heart. So it’s important to spend a short time before or just at the start of worship, readying your heart, focusing on God, asking for forgiveness, focussing on something that God has done, or that you long for him to do. I believe if you sort out your heart, and your head before you enter a time of worship, the prospect of raising your hands in a physical act of worship doesn’t seem a scary thing at all. When you truly focus on God, the people around you, which can make you feel uncomfortable and not confident in worshipping outwardly, become less of an issue.

Ultimately, who’s bigger? We’re concerned about the person to the right and left of us? Maybe they’re concerned about you? What will they think if I raise my hands and actually worship God in the way my heart wants to, in a response to who God is and what he has done for me? And I get it. I understand. Half the time, I struggle with it myself. Half the time I don’t do what my heart wants to do. It’s difficult sometimes.

One example of facedown worship is when the Ark of the Covenant has been taken by the Philistines in 1 Samuel 5, they take it a temple and they place it before their ‘god’ Dagon. The Ark of the Covenant was God’s presence. They come into find their ‘god’ (a statue) Dagon facedown before the Ark of the Covenant. Even supposed gods end up facedown in the presence of God.

Then there’s David. Shortly after the Dagon incident, the Ark of the Covenant is brought back to it’s rightful place. David is so overjoyed, that he dances with all his might in worship of God, in an undignified way. Sometimes when we God ‘gets’ us, we get ‘it’, which is to say we tend to throw off the concerns about what people may think, like David did… and go a little bit crazy and worship God in an undignified way.

This leads to my final point. Worship is a response. It’s a response to who God is. It’s a response to what he’s done, and what he’s going to do. We get so wrapped up in what we want from worship. We base our judgement on how good worship was depending on how ‘hyped up’ and spiritual we feel afterwards. Coming back to what I said at the beginning, it’s about God. Not us.

First and foremost, worship is to God. Secondly, it’s us. God can and does minister to us through the Holy Spirit in worship. It’s communion with God. It’s a two-way thing. That is also why we can (like David does in the Psalms) cry out desperately for God in worship, in our pain and hurting, in the midst of some of the craziness in this world, but still ultimately put our hope and our trust in the God who is in control of everything.

Worship is also a choice. It’s not something we always feel drawn into. Sometimes I’m just not in the mood to get down on my knees and worship God. Just like sometimes the last thing I feel like doing is reading my bible or praying. We don’t just pray to God when we feel like it; otherwise it’s just a take, take, take, relationship. In the same way, we need to make the choice of worshipping God in the midst of suffering. We need to step into worship even when we don’t feel like it, which is basically saying, “God, even though I feel miserable right now, you’re still worthy and I’m going to worship you despite…”

In Habakkuk, the prophet Habakkuk is crying out to God. He’s asking for help. His people are screwing up big time. They’re not living the lives God called them to live. Habakkuk talks about all the destruction and violence and strife and conflict. He wants to know why God isn’t moving when there’s so much wrong going on. He wants to know how God can watch this and do nothing.

God tells Habakkuk that he’s raising up the Babylonians to sort things out. He’s raising up an even worse ungodly nation, to take over the currently ungodly nation of Israel. Ouch. Basically, Habakkuk is in a bad situation, and it’s only going to get worse, and then he prays this:

“Lord, I have heard of your fame; I stand in awe of your deeds, O Lord. Renew them in our day, in our time make them known; in wrath remember mercy.” (Habakkuk 3:2)

It’s amazing. Despite the fact that Habakkuk is in a crappy situation, and he knows it’s only going to get worse because God is raising up the Babylonians, he still worships God. He still, in the midst of suffering, in the knowledge that it’s only going to get worse, trusts God and puts his hope in him.

Habakkuk standing in awe of God’s deeds? What? Even in a bad situation?

There’s so MUCH to stand in awe of. So much that God has done in the bible which should have us fall flat on our face (like Dagon) in worship to God. How can we even find it ‘hard’ or ‘awkward’ to worship?

Saved for what? June 6, 2008

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One thing that I’ve found difficult is to seperate my work (for Re:Hope Next Generation Bible Church) from my personal one-on-one time with God. It made me thing about what it is to work ‘for God’. And how to ’serve’ simply isn’t enough.

Here’s what I’m getting at…

God didn’t save us to serve. That would imply that God needed or required us. Which I find hard to believe. In fact, that’s a nice way of saying it… I just plain and simple don’t believe it.

I had a conversation with a friend over MSN Instand messanger last night, and I asked her, ‘Why did God save us?’.

“Because He loves us”

God didn’t save us to serve him. He doesn’t require that from us. God is all powerful, remember? He’s Glorious with or without us anyway. He saved us for Sonship and to worship Him. (Check out Paul Washer on Youtube).

Makes sense right?

I wasn’t saved to serve. I wasn’t saved because God required something I had to offer. I wasn’t saved because I’m extreamly good-looking… ONLY KIDDING! I was saved because yes, God loves me, and yes he wants for me to be his son, and to worship him and to love him like the almighty father He is.

Sonship is different from Serving. And working for a church, or as a missionary isn’t ‘enough’. You’re a son or a daughter of God, not an employee. The son/daughter element of your relationship with God is still required no matter how many hours you put in ‘working for God’.

He never fails to turn up February 18, 2008

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Yesterday I (co)led worship at Re:Hope – for the first time in a long while.

I’ve been struggling with the thought of leading again. I’m not as ‘comfortable’ with my instrument or vocals as I have been before, etc. It’s been even longer since I’ve led with a full band as well – which made things slightly more stressful.

Both the morning and the evening service… I was feeling it. I was nervous. And the practice hadn’t put me at ‘ease’ either… as far as I was concerned, it didn’t feel like we had everything sorted out.

Last night, I remember thinking… It’s good to rely on God. It’s awesome when practice sucks, but when we’re actually worshipping – everything comes together.

It’s refreshing to see Re:Hope from the front too. I’ve not really realized it as much before, but we’ve got passionate people there. People are engaging with God – which sometimes is pretty hard to see from the back.

I think it’s a good thing to find yourself in a place, where you need to rely on God to move…

The ‘worship’ discussion *dramatic music* January 23, 2008

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That’s right. After the morning service this past Sunday, we had an open discussion in the church on Worship (the music side of things, etc). This was open to everyone in the church… so I’ve no idea why not everyone came! (I mean… who doesn’t want to discuss worship?).

It was good. People got to talk about how they felt about the worship in the church. The got to suggest stuff, question stuff, encourage the team, etc.

Re:hope is made up from people from all different denominational backgrounds. Which sometimes, if your from a traditional background, and standing beside someone from a charasmatic background… you can end up feeling a little bit uncomfortable.

Church discussions are the way to go. It saves the leadership team, and worship team from having to guess about how people are feeling, what they need more teaching in, etc.

So now… having had the discussion… we know where there needs to be some explanation (i.e. what does raising your hands actually mean? Is there a point to the instumental part on the second set, or is it just show off time for the musicians?).

I think it’s important to have this sort of thing. Esecially if you’re at a church with lots of different backgrounds and/or a lot of new Christians. And not just discussing ‘worship’ necessarily.

It results in  everyone being on the same page. People being able to worship without worrying about that ‘thing’ the person next to them is doing, and people being able to worship without having to worry about freaking out the person next to them, etc, so on. People knowing that the ‘instrumental’ time is a chance for them to say what’s on their heart to God, without following the set lyrics of a song, etc.

That was a kind of ramble – no doubt will be editted later.

If you’re not sure what your congregation is thinking, or where they’re at… have a discussion with them.

Re:Hope – Worship November 5, 2007

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We are most certainly getting there! Wherever’there’ is.

Over the last while, our worship team has just been

gettingbetter and better. I say this as a member of the worship team obviously, so allow me to explain what I mean.

Not only are we coming together alot better musically (less hiccups and silly mistakes), we’re getting to know one another better musically too. We’ve got a leader who we know how to follow, and he leads us well. We’ve became (in my opinion) more sensitive to what the Spirit wants us to do. We’re having to worry less about what we’re doing, and are able to focus on God while leading a congregation to the place of Worship.

It’s absolutely amazing how we’ve grown as a team, and as lead worshippers.

I pray that we continue to grow in worship, to be worshippers in Spirit and in Truth, who are able to lead our congregation into worshipping the true and living God. I bless our leader, and our team, and most of all, I thank God for what he’s doing with us, and in our Church. HIS Church.

A Great worship leader August 24, 2007

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1.  Great worship leaders… are consistent. Anyone can lead a great worship moment every once in awhile. The strongest worship leaders have a knack for consistently leading worship in an effective and meaningful way.

Great worship leaders… have learned how to build a worship set in a consistent and systematic way, without feeling like they’re quenching the Spirit of God if they prepare well.

Great worship leaders… know how to make the lion’s share of a set out of songs that are fresh yet familiar, God- centered and easily engaged by all age groups.

Great worship leaders… know how to let the songs lead worship and give the worshiper language for worship. They feel no pressure to say-a-lot or pray-a-lot to keep energy flowing.

2.  Great worship leaders… are equippers. The most appreciated worship leaders have a streak of a trainer and mentor running through them. They are not content to have the platform all to themselves over a few years.

Great worship leaders… know how to enjoy the process of building lifelong friendships with developing worship leaders – particularly those who value their input and share like-mindedness on key levels.

Great worship leaders… know how to mentor over time, without feeling any pressure to release people to lead worship before they are developed musically, emotionally or skillfully.

Great worship leaders… know how to become older brothers and sisters in worship leading, and not to simply protect themselves in the “always-leading” worship leadership role.

3.  Great worship leaders… are pastoral. These worship leaders have a wider skill set than just playing an instrument, leading worship and leading a band.

Great worship leaders… actually care for, and shepherd, their worship teams. Great worship leaders “pastor” the congregation as they lead worship.

Great worship leaders… know when to ask someone to join a team, because their hearts are right, and how to ask someone to take a break because their hearts are askew from the central mandate of the team – to serve.

4.  Great worship leaders… are proficient. Worship leaders who play their instrument well have a much longer sustainability factor within a changing congregation than do those who are weak technically and cannot handle a diversity of demographic or need in a local community.

Great worship leaders… are able on their instrument. They are not always the most proficient musician on the team; in fact, they are sometimes the least!

Great worship leaders… have just enough arranging ability to take a rag tag team, intuitively know what songs they can pull off smoothly, and what songs they simply cannot, and make them sound sweet together in simple arrangements.

Great worship leaders… practice privately, and keep their own chops up personally or with lessons.

5.  Great worship leaders… understand authority. These worship leaders understand what mutual submission is all about. They recognize the mantle that the lead pastor carries for the congregation, and they do all they can to defer to, and support, that leader.

Great worship leaders… know how to honor time limits, ask teachable questions, and share the pastor’s vision for the church in song selection and event preparation.

Great worship leaders… do not push their way into worship leading or other roles – they offer their gifts, and then allow God to make a place for them to lead. They are not pushy or forceful – they are centered, and full of trust in God to make a place for their leadership.

Great worship leaders… graciously receive input, and even pursue it – especially from the lead pastor and common (non-musical) worshipers in the congregation.

6.  Great worship leaders… are passionate. The passionate will always lead, no matter the sphere or situation. Inspiring worship leaders carry a blend of passion and restraint in their toolbox.

Great worship leaders… are exhuberant, without becoming cheerleaders. In other words, they approach the moment of worship with enthusiasm, yet that enthusiasm is tempered with gentleness and a lack of need to generate outward emotion to feel that they’ve done their job.
Great worship leaders can separate their personal emotional state from what the moment calls for in the group they are leading (I don’t know that this art is learned by any other mode than longevity in worship leading experience).

Great worship leaders… love God and the secret place, and worship frequently, for extended times, on their own.

Worship July 9, 2007

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“Every posture in worship says something of both the worshipper and the one being gloried in. The raising of hands tells of a soul stretched out high in praise and the worth of the one being exalted. Joyful dancing interprets a grateful heart and points in adoration to the source of that joy. When it comes to expressing our worship, what we do on the outside is a key reflection of what’s taking place on the inside.”

                           Matt Redman

I used to get really annoyed in my old church. I got excited about the thought of worshipping God, and then got deflated by the people around me. This doesn’t go for everyone obviously, but I’ve never saw such a ’subdued’ bunch of people. I mean… hello… this is the God who saved your soul? You know… the one who gave his only son for you? Your creator?

One problem that I gained from being in the sortof situation on a regular basis, is that I almost restrain what’s going on in the inside… so that it stays inside.

Then there’s the argument that ‘you don’t know what’s going on in the person’s heart’. True. I don’t. I’m just of the opinion that specific times of worship isn’t an opportunity for you just to sing a few catchy songs (and some not so catchy songs) and then sit down for a sermon. Whether you’re singing the songs or not, this is You and God time.

It’s biblical to do physical acts of worship. It might not spell out that we NEED to do it, but it certainly happens.

“All the angels were stranding round the throne and around the elders and the four living creatures. They fell down on their faces before the throne and worshipped God…”

Revelation 7:11

In Ezekial, the prophet beholds the ‘appearance of the likeness of the glory of the Lord’. He responds by falling face down.

Daniel sees a vision of God, whose face shines like lighting, and whose eyes blaze like flaming torches. He bows with his face towards the ground and was speechless.

Loads of people adopt the posture of facedown worship. Abram, Moses, Aaron, King Dave, Peter, James and John.

Even in 1 Samuel, the philistine nation captures the Ark. They carry it into their temple and sit it beside the idol of Dagon. Next morning, the idol is found face down on the ground before the Ark.

This is one particular act of worship. Facedown, or bowing, or kneeling. That posture. You know the one. It’s only one out of a good few.

So, I’m concious that postures, or physical acts of worship mean something significant. Facedown (Matt says:) worship “always begins as a posture of the heart. It’s a person so desperate for the increase of Christ that they find themselves decreasing to the ground in an act of reverent submission. A soul so captivated by the Almighty that to bend low in true and total surrender seems the only appropriate response.”

I’m beginning to look at Worship. What it is to… and how to… and specific acts of…

The next part I’ve just got to work on is applying them. By letting what I feel inside become visible.

Indescribable April 17, 2007

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From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation’s revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

This sums up God for me. And yet… it doesn’t.

Sometimes I think people struggle with the ‘concept’ of there being ‘a god’. It’s as if they need to physically see it to believe it.

In the days that Moses was walking about, and round about then, alot of the ‘gods’ people would be following, they would have statues or idols of. Something that you could physically see and worship. The type of ‘god’ you could get your mind around.

That’s the difference between those ‘gods’ and God. In my knowledge, there’s no shape to God. Or form. No end to God. No limits. Nothing you could put you’re finger on and say “this IS God”. See where I’m coming from?

Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? (Nice question Job.) Proberly not. Because there are no limits. No end. God is infinately huger than our little brains can or could ever possibly imagine.

Kinda like when Moses is like asking God what name he’s to go by (or at least I think he does - I have no bible – I’m in work and most likely shouldn’t be blogging!) and God says “I AM”. That’s a bit… vague. Or… a bit bigger than we can imagine. God…is…? I’m now thinking aloud… or cyber thinking aloud anyway.

So… even God’s name is beyond our understanding. Anything we do ‘attach’ to God is like putting words to a reality that is beyond words. We can’t adequately put God into words. We don’t have the capability. No one does?

Rob Bell says: “If we do definatively put God into words, we have, at that very moment made God something God is not.”

Hmm. So… Indescribable?

Comments welcome on this one.

Austria 07 – Came and Gone April 16, 2007

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God's playground...

*Sigh* – I miss it already. Austria was awesome. God was there.

Here’s a sorta run down of what our week/ten days looked like:

Saturday – All aboard the bus – travel to England (BOO! Kidding Andy…) and catch a ferry. Good opportunity to get to know the ‘campers’ and learn everyone’s names.

Sunday – Ship lands in Belgium. Our third country. We travel absolutely all day through Belgium, France, somewhere else I can’t remember the name of, Germany and finally Austria. Long day. Multiple DvD’s, and lots of sleeping.

creepy?Monday – First day Skiing. Get hire skis for anyone that doesn’t have their own, and hit the mountains. (Also recieve a txt from Brian at the top of a mountain… wonder how much that cost him… or me?). After skiing, we’ve got dinner, quiet time groups (during which I spent the time preparing for Worship), then the ‘meeting’ where we have a teaching time and Worship time. The theme of the week is ‘The Good News’.

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday are much the same. Apart from mixed in to our ‘Agenda’ is: Visiting the local town for either swimming or ice skating – of which I done neither; a good old fashioned ceildh (I’ll never spell it right); extended time of worship.

The one day that we had the ceilidh (another attempt) though we had taking a minor mis- turn in one of our off-piece adventures. We ended up in a gulley (me falling into a burn) and had to spend about an hour and a half climbing out through deep snow. Amazingly, we did make it back to the bus on time. However, I did pay for it at the ceilidgh (yet another attempt) during Strip the willow – nearly falling over several times. Andy Ash would have loved it.

Extended Worship time/night was good. Or at least, that’s the impression I got. Basically, anyone that wanted to had the opportunity to stay on for ‘more Worship’. I had asked another guy who was pretty keen to lead worship lead that night, so there was a gap inbetween meeting and the ‘extra stuff’ which allowed people to go to the loo, get a drink, and me to get my gear set up.

It’s one thing I love. I see part of a Lead Worshippers role as actually ‘leading’ the congregation into that place of Worship. With this small group of people though – some of them not even Christians – they came ready to worship God. They were already ‘warmed up’ from the meeting and were longing for more… of GOD. Longing to praise him more. It was quality.

We also done this thing every morning sorta during breakfast where someone would ’share’ either their testimony or ‘a thought’ or something they’d been recently thinking about (bible related obviously). So picture this:

I had decided to stay in bed. Seeing as I rarely have a proper breakfast, I decided I’d benefit more from an extra half hour in bed. I decided after about half an hour, that I might as well get ready and go down to breakfast for the last 5 mins – at which point I realised I was meant to be sharing.

I talked about Running the race. Sound familiar? Paul talks about running ‘the race’. I blabbered on about that for a couple of mins, and then asked 2 questions:

- Are you running the race, Period? And if not, why not?

- If you are running the race, then are you running it in such a way as to finish well?

(Blog more about my stolen talk later.)

Then it was pretty much home time. We stopped of in Brugge in Belgium on the way back, and I went in search of some cultural munchies – ending up in Pizzahutt.

Over all – I was refreshed. I led worship for a WHOLE week. I loved it. I got to show people how to do one of my favourite things – Praise God.

At the top of a mountain... Belgium - Cathedral

‘When I survey…’ April 6, 2007

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I’m In Austria. I’ve been leading worship the whole week – which has been brilliant and tough at the same time. Brilliant in that I love to worship God – he’s worthy of my praise. Tough in that I’ve had a lot of attack during the week – something that seems to accompany me leading worship.

Speaking of which, I’ve only just came down from the ‘auditorium’… where we just had our meeting/worship time.

I’ve been really challenged this week. 2 or 3 times I’ve played ‘When I survey’ (celtic version) when I’ve been leading. Last night was out ‘extended worship time’, and the last song was ‘When I survey’. The last line, is… “Demands my soul, my life, my all…”.

I’d like to say that I love God and am living 100% for Him… but I’m not. It’s really struck home with me that God wants, and deserves my everything. How many little things get in the way, or are holding me back from being closer to God? Too many as far as I’m concerned. So… I’m to focus more on God. Focus on dropping the things that are holding me back from Him – in order that I can be more like Him.

Ramble…